Everything is changing.  Quickly.
Yesterday was our last Children's Outreach.  We've had quite a regular little group coming and I've grown rather found of those kids.  Most of them seem to come from pretty sad families.  I know I keep saying I don't like teaching but... I have really enjoyed those times in the park with them.  That has been my favorite ministry-type thing in the training program.
Today was our last day going door-to-door.  And... I'm not gonna lie.  I'm pretty happy about that.
I also met with Julie for the last time today.  What a dear friend she has become.  Always so sweet and encouraging... at my lowest point during this past 6 months... her encouargement was like gold.  I am going to miss her so much.
We moved John out today.  That is so sad.  I hate the thought of him being here alone and secretly entertain thoughts of coming back and staying with him.  He is the sunshine of my day.  Always so easy to talk to, always so understanding, always making life look brighter.  I don't know how he does it.  I am going to miss him like crazy.
This next week or so is going to be so crazy.  School and packing and moving and saying goodbyes... it's going to be rough.  I think we will probably show up at conference looking like... I don't what, but it's probably not gonna be pretty. ;)
Moving back to Wyoming... mixed feelings about that.
Sometimes I think I'm nothing more than a mixed up, pathetic little girl. :) 

"The Joy of the Lord is my Strength"

 

 

             Joy in the Lord does not change the cirsumstance but gives us the strength needed to endure.

Wow.  It's already (past-time) to start packing.  Can't believe it.  In a way it's all gone by really fast.  And then, on the other hand... it's been forever.  So many mixed feeling about.... everything.
One thing about life.. the longer it goes on the more confusing and complicated it becomes.  Nothing seems simple or clear anymore.
We had a great time in Yoncalla last weekend. It was so refreshing.
One more week of training.  This last week class time is left up to the trainees.  Wednesday next week will be our last day.  Crazy.  It's been amazing.  Really amazing.  But I am ready to move on. (I think... :P)
I am so sad about leaving here.  I have really loved it.  I am super sad about leaving John.  I sure do love being with that crazy guy.  He never ceases to make me smile.  Even when he (occasionally) makes me mad... he always manages to immediately make me smile. I don't know how he does it. :)
I got a good report from the doctor yesterday.  She said my foot is 90% healed and that I can slowly start walking...and then slowly start running again.  That makes me super happy.  And, I can wear a normal shoe now... haha... I was so worried she was going to make me wear that horrible boot to conference.  Vanity.. I know.
Sometimes the future seems so scary and uncertain that I literally feel sick to my stomach.  I am so thankful that.. in the end, I can come back to just resting and trusting in Him, knowing that all is in His hands, and that He is faithful.  When everything seems so unclear... I am just thankful for Him.  I scare myself sometimes. :)

"Time spent waiting on God is never wasted" ~ Hudson Taylor 

Coffee Date

I have always known that following the Lord would not be easy.  That there would be many hard things.  That He would ask me to do things that would make me uncomfortable.  That He would bring trials into my life to refine me.  That He would ask me to surrender the things that are precious to me. That I would have to entrust all my desires, all my dreams, all my wants to Him. That He would have to have the highest place in my heart and that anything that competed for the place would have to be removed.  I knew all that.  But you can know something and forget how painful it will be.  You can say you are surrendered to the Lord... and forget that He is going to ask you to do some really hard things.  How we struggle with that.  How we struggle with believing that He has our best in mind.  When something hurts.... we find it so hard to believe.

Jesus, all for Jesus

All I am, and have, and ever hope to be

All of my ambitions, hopes, and plans

I surrender these into your hands

For it's only in your will that I am free

For it's only in your will that I am free