Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Love this quote...

"We are all a little weird (or really weird...as the case may be..) and life's a little weird and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love." - Dr. Seuss

Monday, October 29, 2012

Yay for emails. Sometimes I wonder why I bother having an email at all, my inbox is usually filled with nothing but junk mail. Is it just because you have to have an email to sign up for anything? ;). But... every once in awhile there is something waiting there for me. Guess I won't give up on it completely yet. :)
I need to find a job I think. John thinks I should move to Yoncalla with him. I don't know what to do... I know mom isn't too thrilled by the idea. :)
Hannah's planning is spending a month with the Cordell's in Bend... Now whatever shall I do with myself?
" We are acceptable to God, not because we have obeyed, nor because we have promised to give up things, but because of the death of Christ and for no other reason."
-Oswald Chambers

Sunday, October 28, 2012

"Trust me with those you love. I know your heart, and I know how much you love those close to you. I am your Creator and the Giver of every good gift. I have given you loved ones to share your life with. But you, my child, must remember that those you love ultimately belong to me- not you. I didn't give you those special relationships to tear you apart or to control you through fear of the future. Like Abraham did with his only son Isaac, I need you to open your heart and give me back those you love. Trust me with everything that concerns you regarding them. Place your hand in mine, and I promise I will walk with you - and your loved ones - through all things this life brings."
- Sherri Rose Shepherd ( Love Letters from your King)
"God pays no respect to ANYTHING (our standards, our ideas, our righteousnesses, our good plans, etc.) we bring Him. There is only one thing God wants of us: our
unconditional surrender."
-Oswald Chambers

Well. I did it. I survived not going to cider press. :)
I love my iPod touch. Seriously. I'm somewhat obsessed.
My room is no longer an obnoxious shade of purple-ish pink and baby blue. Thank goodness for green!
I woke Hannah up last night by screaming for her to help me. I was dreaming I had a spider crawling on my face. I was literally terrified. And Hannah was not very helpful. Haha

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Endeavouring not to be extremely jealous of everyone who will be at the cider press.  Failing.
I selfishly hate the thought of everyone all together, having fun, without me.  I mean, is that even possible?! ;)
Oh. the joys of being a thousand miles away.
Oh well.  I guess I'll just go for a... run.  Yeah. that will make up for it.  Yeeeaah....

Monday, October 22, 2012

Quotes from a Friend :)



After that He appeared in another form unto two of them." Mark 16:12

 
Being saved and seeing Jesus are not the same thing. Many are partakers of God's grace who have never seen Jesus. When once you have seen Jesus, you can never be the same, other things do not appeal as they used to do.
Jesus must appear to your friend as well as to you, no one can see Jesus with your eyes. Severance takes place where one and not the other has seen Jesus. You cannot bring your friend unless God brings him. Have you seen Jesus? Then you will want others to see Him too. "And they went and told it unto the residue, neither believed they them." You must tell, although they do not believe.
 


THE PRICE OF VISION

"In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw also the Lord."
Our soul's history with God is frequently the history of the "passing of the hero." Over and over again God has to remove our friends in order to bring Himself in their place, and that is where we faint and fail and get discouraged. Take it personally: In the year that the one who stood to me for all that God was, died - I gave up everything? I became ill? I got disheartened? or - I saw the Lord?

My vision of God depends upon the state of my character. Character determines revelation. Before I can say "I saw also the Lord," there must be something corresponding to God in my character. Until I am born again and begin to see the Kingdom of God, I see along the line of my prejudices only; I need the surgical operation of external events and an internal purification.

It must be God first, God second, and God third, until the life is faced steadily with God and no one else is of any account whatever. "In all the world there is none but thee, my God, there is none but thee." Keep paying the price. Let God see that you are willing to live up to the vision.

Isaiah 6:1
Oh. the joys of not having interent at home.  I'm constantly thinking, oh, I need to do this.  or print that. or  I should write that on my blog.  yeah...  Next on my list:  Interent. AT HOME. :)
Plus, considering my awesome new ipod... :)
Life continually changes.  Training is *officially* ended.  The teachers decided just to forget the last 6 weeks we had originally planned. *whew*  I made it through! :)  Now... I have no plans.  nothing scheduled on my horizon.  So. now what?  I had hoped to meet up with Johnny in Bend... but since he's leaving...  I'm thinking maybe I'll end up just staying right here in Powell. 
That's not the worst thing I guess.  I have been lonely here.  But... on the flip side of that.  The Lord has definitely been speaking to me... constantly being the Rock I need.  constantly suppyling strength in my extreme weakness.  constantly giving encouragement and rest when the pain seems too great.
I find myself often feeling "not at rest".  But HE brings me around.  Fears about the past.  Fears about the future.  Sleepless nights and strange dreams sometimes bother me.... but, neverthless.  HE.  What else really matters?  He is there.  He knows.  He holds.  He keeps.  He is strong.  He cares.  Therefore, I can rest.
Priscilla and Feilynn headed out this morning.  It will be so strange not having them around.  We have been together through a lot of months.
And so?  What next?  I realize the important thing is Him.  And all the other decisions seem so unimportant comparitvely... He's in control of all of those things.  So, perhaps a job or something will appear on my horizon soon.  We shall see.

Friday, October 12, 2012



"the hard and daily things of today are truly nothing. they come and go, they hurt and bring happiness, they confuse and make clear. But He? is only. all. ever." ~H.S.


SO. true.
And so another year ends. and another begins.
Here I am.  And, life goes on.
I think sometimes birthdays can be more depressing than we'd like.  Simply because somewhere in our childhood we truly believed that it was the day where we make all our wishes, our parents buy us the things we've been wanting...or whatever.  It's the day when you're really happy.
I guess now it kind of works the opposite.  Or maybe I am just more like Eor than I'd like to admit.
This year I could only think of all the problems and things that can't be fixed by candles or balloons or presents...  although, I do still like the presents.  Not gonna lie... hehe...
And so this year begins with an odd mixture of tears and laughter/happiness and sadness.
And now I am sure I sound quite ungrateful, depressed, self-absorbed, and full of self-pity.
I suppose I probably am.

Birthday Photos :)








Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I am wearing green today.  Just because it's my favorite color.
Tomorrow is my birthday.  It doesn't really seem possible that I could be turning 22.  I'm not really excited about that.  I don't think I should be any older than 20. :)
At one point I had a "favorite year"... I think I had decided that was when I was 17?  or was it 18?  I can't really remember now.  Too bad.  Everything was simpler, clearer..easier.
Looking back over this year.... *sigh*... I feel tired.  I think it has probably been the most difficult year of my life in many ways.  And, I don't know how, but it's been happy too.  Bittersweet.  I like bittersweet chocolate better than bittersweet life.  I have probably cried more this last year than I ever have before.  But there have been moments where I have never laughed more.
Looking back over this last year... I don't feel like I have changed any.  I wonder if that's true?  Truthfully, I don't even recognize myself anymore.  ha.  I don't know who I was or what I was thinking a year ago.  Was that yesterday or a lifetime ago?
I don't know what I want to do for my birthday.... well.  maybe I should say I don't know what I want to do that's reasonably possible. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jS8IZcx7tJY

My 21st Year Recap

OCTOBER 2011

Highlights:
> In California... oh. yes.
> Traveled to Bend
>  Stayed with the Mcdaniels
> Decided (on my birthday actually) to move to Bend and go through training
> Heard my dear friend Alyssa was in a relationship (also on my birthday)
>  Visited Montana/Wyoming
> Moved to Bend
>Cider Press


In Hollywood :) 


Hollywood Again


Traveling to Oregon... classic breakdown



California



Hiking with the Mcdaniels


NOVEMBER 2011

Highlights:

>  Moved into out apartment... finally out of that camper!!
> Dad went to Oklahoma for work
> Thanksgiving with John :)



Hike to "Happy Valley"


DECEMBER 2011

Highlights:
> Kaylie and Tyler got engaged
>  Ran the most miles I've ever run in a month (188) :)


Jumping out of the van into snow drifts...haha




Coffee Shops in Bend :)



I Love Us.



Hiking to Smith Rock


JANUARY 2012

Highlights:

> Dad traveled to Bangladesh
>  Awesome New Year's Eve party
> Fun times with Janelle...hehehe








Oh.  the sledding trip.  Chinese food can heal a number of bruises...:)



FEBRUARY 2012

Highlights:

> Went to Eugene.  Sweet Life.  Need I say more? ;)
> Surprise visit from the Ramby's.  Amazing.

Hiked Mt. Pisgah!



Hiked Pilot Butte



MARCH 2012

Highlights:

>Started the Training Program
> Stopped running... because of a foot injury.. :(




APRIL 2012

Highlights:

> Trip to Portland with the training










MAY 2012

Highlights:

> CONFERENCE! :)
> Survived having to share at conference... haha...
> Beach with the Van Zyle's... our kindred family... ;)
>Tilamook Cheese Factory...
>BBQ at the Mcdaniels















JUNE 2012

Highlights:

> Kaylie's Wedding


Bowling



Cheating the Jump Rope Game :)



So.  Happy. ;)



                                                   






Floating the River.  With Coffee.  Yes, please. :)


JULY 2012

Highlights:

> 4th of July.  I love fireworks. :)

>Cliff Jumping/Swimming

>Visit from Dusytn and Keri

>Trip to Couredalene/Spokane 

> Stress Fracture Diagnosis... and the arrival of the lovely boot. ;)















AUGUST 2012

Highlights:

>Trip to Vanouver, B.C.
>Trip to Yoncalla
>Visit from the Van Zyle's
















SEPTEMBER 2012

Highlights

> End of Training Program
> Moved to Wyoming
> Conference
>Alyssa's Wedding
>Produce... lots of produce...
>Trip to Missoula
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