Not much to say. Life is kind of getting into a pretty predictable routine these days. Which is okay. I can work with routine. ;)
Mom asked me today how I felt about being here. It was kind of a strange question to answer. I feel like I should be here, so that definitely keeps things in perspective. And I think I'm doing exactly what I came to do- and I'm trying to do it with a better attitude.. (haha)... I guess I'm just the sort of person that takes things as they come. I can usually accept/deal with it in the moment and be okay. And that's how I feel. There are sad things, and there are happy things. Seems like everything is bittersweet. I am busy and that helps immensely. There are definitely moments when 'home' sounds so nice. Being where you are comfortable and happy and everything is normal. I don't know where that is for me exactly, but it does sound nice. ;) Now that I am here, I'm very glad I came. I would not want to have missed this. The future seems very unclear. (Of course.. when doesn't it?) I don't know when the last time was that I truly had *definite* plans...haha.. I don't know how long I'll be here. I don't know when I would go home, or even where I would go. I just don't know.
Which is pretty much exactly how I felt when I was living in Oregon.. so I guess not much has changed really!
And, I guess I don't really need to know right now. For now, today- I am pretty content to be here. It's just where I am at for now. And it's okay.
Ask me tomorrow and I might feel totally different... haha ;)
Mom asked me today how I felt about being here. It was kind of a strange question to answer. I feel like I should be here, so that definitely keeps things in perspective. And I think I'm doing exactly what I came to do- and I'm trying to do it with a better attitude.. (haha)... I guess I'm just the sort of person that takes things as they come. I can usually accept/deal with it in the moment and be okay. And that's how I feel. There are sad things, and there are happy things. Seems like everything is bittersweet. I am busy and that helps immensely. There are definitely moments when 'home' sounds so nice. Being where you are comfortable and happy and everything is normal. I don't know where that is for me exactly, but it does sound nice. ;) Now that I am here, I'm very glad I came. I would not want to have missed this. The future seems very unclear. (Of course.. when doesn't it?) I don't know when the last time was that I truly had *definite* plans...haha.. I don't know how long I'll be here. I don't know when I would go home, or even where I would go. I just don't know.
Which is pretty much exactly how I felt when I was living in Oregon.. so I guess not much has changed really!
And, I guess I don't really need to know right now. For now, today- I am pretty content to be here. It's just where I am at for now. And it's okay.
Ask me tomorrow and I might feel totally different... haha ;)
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