It's 8 o'clock on a Friday night - and all I can think about is putting on some warm pajamas and going to bed.  It's pretty bad, I mean, I'm only 22. hehe... oh well. :P
It's probably a good thing actually. I'm still not sure that I've recovered from last weekend.  And this one's looking like it's going to be pretty full too.  I did have a really nice time with John though.... :)  Well worth the sleep deprivation.
So. tomorrow... I'm going to get up. run 7 miles or so.  get ready to go to town.  Have a coaching session from 11-12. Drive to town.  Pick up the 4 Harris kids.  Spend a few hours with them. Go to the park, get ice cream and all that good stuff. Drop them off.  Meet Janelle and John.  Possibly (if the weather actually turns out nice enough), take their engagement pictures.  And then.. who knows what after that!  Its going to be a long day.  But (hopefully) a good one. :)

"If we are not 'setting our affection on things above', we are automatically setting our affection on things of the earth. There is no neutral - we are either moving forward, or we are going backwards. If you think you're in neutral- you're in reverse."
-D. York

Bangladesh
"Bangladesh has been one of the poorest countries of the world since its inception in 1971. The country is overcrowded, poverty-stricken and disease-ridden. These people daily deal with rampant unemployment and corruption and they often live in conditions that are unthinkable.

The government of Bangladesh does not allow adoption in this country, so the only way to help support the underprivileged children is through orphanages and boarding schools.

When their families can't afford to provide for them or their parents die of malnutrition or disease, thousands of children take to the streets. In fact, one in every 15 children born in Bangladesh end up on the streets to fend for themselves."

"Be serious in your commitment to God and gladly leave everything else alone. Literally put God first in your life." - O. Chambers

I woke up late today. Oops. :-/  Set my day off pretty weird... but hey, I was enjoying the dream I was having! :)  I usually try to get up before Samuel so I actually have some time to wake up before the work begins.  I am definitely not a morning person.
It was another beautiful sunny day here.  It climbed up into the high 60's, and as Samuel and I were coming back from the park I was complaining about it being "too hot".  That's when I realized I'm probably going to die in Bangladesh. haha...  What can I say?  I'm just a girl from the mountains!  I am not a hot weather person. (Although I do like to try and imagine that I am a "hot person".  Usual doesn't work. haha... but I do try. ;) )
Had a nice dinner with the brother.  Though, his mind does seem to be somewhat occupied these days, and reasonably so... :)  Let me just say - at the risk of sounding like a man - that steak was amazing!
We spent a good deal of time looking for his keys.  Backtracking all over town... in the restaurant, where we parked....along the side walks...  Until finally, being the ingenious person that I am, I decided to go around to the passenger side door and look in the ignition.  I know right?!  Genius. haha...
And so ends another day here.. I suppose I'd better get some sleep because I don't want to wake up late again tomorrow. :P

I love the time change.  Suddenly it's starting to feel like summer might not be too far away after all.  I love the longer days and the fact that it's no longer getting dark at 4:00.  It makes me feel energetic.
Samuel and I went to the park today.  It was sunny outside, 60 degrees... pretty sweet!
After dinner I had time to go running on my newly-found favorite trail, and pretty much set a new record for myself!  I celebrated with ice cream. haha... ;)  Hannah's worried about me getting skinnier than her, so really, out of the kindness of my heart, I did it for her. ;)
And this is how life goes right now.  Nothing too exciting, but I'm pretty content here.
Bangladesh still looms in the future.  I find myself accepting that as a reality, and even having moments of excitement.  It's still awhile down the road, but I'm trying to prepare myself. Thinking of things I need to/want to do before we go. Things to do while I'm there.  I am realizing it's not the end of the world.  And the reality is I won't be completely cut-off from people.  Maybe I am trying to be a little less dramatic about it.  I do think it's right that I go, that it's the next step for me.  I don't know for how long, or what will be after that... we'll see I guess. :)

I asked God (again) for an answer yesterday. His response seemed pretty clear - "Do you trust me?"
Obviously I don't. That's why I keep wanting Him to just make things clear for me.  But it should be enough to ease my mind knowing that He sees things clearly.  When I have moments of fear and dread and panic... it's hard to come back to the place of realizing it's all in His hands anyway. Has been the whole time.  But now I'm asking myself... Do I trust Him?  Trust Him to do what is right? what is best? what is good?  Do I trust Him with the people I care about, or do I just panic?  Do I trust that He will never ask anything of me that isn't for my benefit? 
I don't think I do.  But I'm learning. I hope. ;P
I am realizing that having answers isn't really the important thing.  The important thing is living a life knowing the One who has all the answers, and trusting Him to take care of it all....

So - this is cool.  Just found all these statistics about how many times my blog has been viewed, where from, with what web browser/device, what posts have been viewed the most. Kinda scary actually.. since I thought that nobody really reads my blog. Honestly, I never really figured/intended anyone would! haha... Guess I started it mostly for myself.  But apparently - it does get read. In fact, someone was reading it just minutes ago. And, I have no idea who you are.  Probably don't want to.  It's easier writing not having to worry about who is reading it and what they are thinking about you. hehe :-/

Can you believe it's March 10th already?  We're like a third of the way through March already!
I know I keep saying it over and over...and over... but where does the time go?
I have reasons to be really glad time is going by so fast... and reasons why I really wish it wouldn't.
For one thing - as time goes on I am remembering that my job here is temporary.  There has been no discussion of me leaving as of yet... but still.  I'm scared.  No. Terrified.  At some point... that will come. and I really, really don't want to move back to Wyoming.  It's strange... I couldn't even really tell you why I hated living there so much.  I just did.  I hated it so much that as much as I miss my family and as lonely as I get sometimes, I still desperately want to stay here.  I keep reminding myself that the Lord has it all under control and it will all be good and right.  Yeah. and somehow - I still find myself panicking. Now what does that say about me?  I know - pretty bad right? ;P
So.  I had a really nice weekend.  It was beautiful and warm and sunny.  Saturday morning I went running.  I found this awesome trails down by the river.  Can't believe I'm just now finding them!  Trail running is my absolute favorite.  I overcame my fear of being murdered (yeah.. need to stop watching those murder mystery shows... I'm becoming paranoid... :-/ ), and just went for it.  It was great.
I started coaching with my brother Saturday morning. After our first "session"... I'm pretty stoked.  I think I really needed this.. and didn't realize it.  We basically just established some goals to work towards.  Truthfully- I haven't had many goals lately.  Pretty much ambition-less. Which is pretty sad. So- yeah.  I'm thinking this is going to be really good/motivating for me.  I definitely need motivation.  I need a direction to run. Somehow it seems like it works just fine mindlessly picking trails to go running... but in life.. it doesn't seem quite so simple. ;) haha.. So if YOU need motivation/direction/goals... I can hook you up with a pretty great coach. Highly recommend it. :)
I spent the afternoon in Bend... just shopping, walking around, drinking coffee.. That was nice too. Really hoping the brother will come visit me soon. It's fun.. but it's definitely more fun with people.
And I basically did the same things today. Went to church. Spent time in town.  Went running. All in all it's been a really nice weekend. Actually - it was a nice week too.
So. That's my latest! ;)

"When you have no vision from God, no enthusiasm left in your life, and no one watching and encouraging you, it requires the grace of Almighty God to take the next step in your devotion to Him, in the reading and studying of His Word, in your family life, in your duty to Him. It takes much more of the grace of God, and a much greater awareness of Him, to take that next step, than it does to preach the gospel." - Oswald Chanbers

I got up at 5:30 this morning... trying to enjoy a little peace and quiet before Samuel starts screaming to get up, screaming for breakfast...screaming. It's been a stressful week let me tell you! I take my day as Samuel gives it to me, and when he's not happy/not feeling well...It is rough! He can be a harsh little taskmaster that one... ;)
On the up side.. It's pay day. That's always good. :)
I can't believe it's march already. We started the training last March! Was that really a year ago? It's unbelievable! I think it was the third? Or the fifth? Either way. It's crazy.
So...that's my schpeel for the day... Hopefully I make it through without crying. I need to get away somewhere this weekend I think! :-/

Bless the Lord , O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's. The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever. He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us. Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust. As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more. But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children's children; To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them. (Psalms 103:2-5, 8-18 KJV)